When I was young and innocent, full of wonder and glory
My model was; “don’t worry, be happy,” seeking
trills and adventures
Friends were my mentors and I was theirs
Parents’ warnings were tossed out-of-the-way
Then, life was trouble-free and uncomplicated.
I was unscathed by danger that prowl around me
I was strong indivisible, in circle of my friends
Tough and vigorous, electrifying, and
inexperienced
I wanted to conquer the world and I did, for an awhile…
In my early teenage years, I was experiencing
puppy love;
“I will die if he leaves me now, don’t leave me,
and don’t walk away from me, please…”
Addictive love, in my late teens; “oh, dear God
let him call, why he isn’t calling me?”
Few more loves in my twenties, some were broken
off, and some left me for another, and one led to a marriage.
Subsequently I had to grow up, it wasn’t easy,
but I had no option
Moments in time were passing me by and I couldn’t
go back in era
Serious dating period started and friends; one by
one, were dropping out, of our cherished circle of friends.
Marriages, engagements, moving in together,
steady boyfriends, babies
Stable jobs, constant worries, buying homes,
working harder
Became our interest in our so call grown up world!
And then one day, dreadful breakups and divorces
ended our lives as we knew it.
Starting over again in my middle age was very
scary, feeling insecure, and my heart was broken…
Kids moved out, husband left to be with a younger
woman and I was left all alone, with no place to go…
People change, and I have obtained a great understanding
of life and love, however…
To trust again, to love again, to feel free again,
has been lost…
Nowadays it’s much harder to find new friends,
new love…
And even harder to look in the mirror, and see
reflection of a stranger who resembles me…
“Who’s
this person staring back at me?” I don’t recognize her, who’s she? And at that
moment I started to weep, take me back to a place where I was happy and
liberated…
How I yearn, to be young again, I would give up
everything, to be young again…
